| dream and other stuff |
[Sep. 4th, 2008|08:50 am] |
holy crap!!!!
i havent posted on here for ages.
i had a cool dream and told my freind about it on msn so i copied it and now im gonna paste it on here.
Bryce says:
i had an amazing dream this morngin
Bryce says:
i was looking at rocks and found this interesting one with little crystals on it
Bryce says:
then
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i took a closer look and
Bryce says:
i found this tiny little round crystal
（^ー^*）ＳＡＥ says:
and then?
Bryce says:
it looked different and some how i was fascinated by it
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so i examined it some more
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and
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i realized that the crystal was so ummmm...it had a specific pattern
Bryce says:
kind of like a snowflake
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my dad was with me
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i thought it might be an egg or something
Bryce says:
it was a little round ball
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so
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i thought that i wanted to look inside
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then...
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i dont remember this part very well
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but
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my dad opened it or i did...
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then this little crystal lifeform came out of it
Bryce says:
it was kind of glowing
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and moving a bit
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it had many points
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like a star with a thousand point
Bryce says:
s
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then somehow it seemed like it was dead
Bryce says:
maybe i killed it
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then i was so sad
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and crying
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i thought it was my dads fault
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then we took it back to our science lab and left it out to be examined later
Bryce says:
then...
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i saw underwater on the sea floor
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there was a crack
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and all these little glowing lights with legs and arms and a smilly face came out of the crack
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they came for their brother and took him back into the earth
the imagery was amazing and i wish i could show you pictures of my dream...
also im having a bbq this friday night at 6pm. any one want to come. your more than welcome. |
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| kamloops |
[Apr. 27th, 2008|09:00 am] |
drove the coke-ahalla yesterday. jake had a job interveiw at a resort an hour north of there. so kota jake and i all went in jakes car. it was a nice trip. i drove quite a bit. i think it was a pretty good experience for us all and we all bonded quite a bit and talked of the future. kota is leaving on monday for japan and jake most likely will be taking that job and starts on may 6th. so we have found a new japanese roomate to replace kota and guess what his name is kota. hahahaa. wierd. hes staying with us now and has been since the 23rd so im getting to know him a bit already and we get along well so far. jake will be posting on the net for a replacement for himself today or tomorrow. i still have to decide how much i should charge for that room, which is kind of a delemma. anybody have any usefull input?
*stares blankly at the skreen for i dont know maybe 5 mins then decides he has nothing else to say* |
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| dream about getting married |
[Apr. 27th, 2008|08:52 am] |
extracted from msn conversation
Bryce says:
i had a really wierd yet profound dream this morning
Stella says:
about me again?
Bryce says:
i dreamt i was getting married
Bryce says:
hahaha
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no not about you
Stella says:
who was the lucky person?
Bryce says:
i didnt even know her
Bryce says:
actually in the dream for a while i wasnt even sure which girl it was
Bryce says:
i wasnt prepared at my wedding at all
Stella says:
did you look it up in your dream book
Stella says:
I think it is good to dream about it
Bryce says:
i wasnt even sure who i was marrieing for a whille there
Bryce says:
wasnt sure if we should get married
Stella says:
who are we?
Bryce says:
i started getting so worried about everything and didnt even have a speach prepared or wedding vowx
Bryce says:
s
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we?
Stella says:
and then
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we=me and the girl i was marrying
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i was in some building maybe the third floor
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waiting for guests to arive
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so many people started coming
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i could see them out the window and tehy had no where to park
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i was talking with them out the window
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anyway lots of other stuff happend but important parts
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...
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um
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i was with my wife to be and asking her if this is what she really wanted
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we where in bed making love , not sex
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and we where talking about it
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it was a very important conversation
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i found really profound
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a real conection
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so we decided to go ahead
Bryce says:
hahaha
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i didnt even know this girl
Stella says:
so you are merried now?
Bryce says:
no
Bryce says:
in the dream we never got to that part
Stella says:
what happened?
Bryce says:
i started feeling really anxious in my dream and was trying to convey something really important to her that i needed her to understand and it was slipping away
Bryce says:
its neat cuz the way i was conveying that important thing was that i was trying to discribe something beautiful to me
Bryce says:
it was the beach at sunset surfing the waves
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then i woke up feeling kinda anxious
Bryce says:
almost like it was a bit of a nightmare
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but i was thinking about my dream all morning
Stella says:
did you look it up in your dream book?
Bryce says:
i dont have a dream book
Bryce says:
that was megans
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i gave it back to her
Bryce says:
i think
Bryce says:
hmmm
Bryce says:
dont remember
Bryce says:
if i do have that book i dont know where it is
Stella says:
what were you thinking about the dream?
Bryce says:
i wanted to remember it
Bryce says:
so i went over it again and again
Bryce says:
so i could remember the important parts
Bryce says:
i think its profound to me
Bryce says:
ive never dreamt about getting married before
Stella says:
why is it profound?
Stella says:
what is it making you think about?
Bryce says:
i think its really on my unconcious mind these days
Bryce says:
i think i want to get married
Bryce says:
seriously
Bryce says:
no more playing around
Bryce says:
im kind of suprised
Bryce says:
i feel like im becoming more serious about my life
Stella says:
have you been thinking about how to change your life?
and then it the converstation goes on a bit after this but i thought this was a good part to cut it off. |
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| the new world |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|05:42 pm] |
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im sick of thinking about my exgirlfriend. im sick of the way ive been living my life. its spring. lots of things on my mind. really enjoying the longer hours of sunlight these days. feeling like im really loosing my motivation at work. dont know what else to say... needing change. |
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| fighting the good fight |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|08:33 am] |
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aaahhhh had such a bad day at work yesterday cuz they brought in some new guy to fill the position i thought i was gonna get. after work hung around and had some drinks with the guys but didnt say much. went home and put on a movie and fell asleep at around 8:30pm with my contacts in and lights on. woke up at 1:30am took out eyes and went back to sleep. woke up at 6:30am this mornin and turned on puter and almost started to play vid games but turned it off. then i got up and looked out my window. sooo sunny. sooo good. still a bit frosty out but i like that. went down to hot tub and tried to relax and massage my back a bit. another guy at work quite at lunch cuz i think he just had enough had been feeling like he was being taken advantage of for some time. blahhh. we shall see what happens today. wish me luck. |
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| life |
[Apr. 16th, 2008|08:19 am] |
woke up at 6am this morning to a bad dream about my last girlfriend... pretty bad dream. ive been wakin up early alot these days. got a lot of anxiety lately. girlfriend left me again and we had a big fight last time we talked on the phone. havent heard from her since. feel pretty bad about it. but coming to accept it. wanting to repair the damage done and be the best of friends. i feel bad cuz we couldnt talk about things and try to figure things out. instead just hurting each other. i just want to feel love not this feeling. feel bad about some of the things i said but felt like i had to express my feelings. blah blah blah dont want to say anymore now but wanted to make a memory about this so here i am writing about it.
other things, my japanese roomate kota is moving out and i met a possible replacement last night. jake my korean roomate is moving out soon too. soo....its kinda stressin me out. but its not sooo bad... kota is doing most of the work to replace himself. funny thing one of the guys he was talking to about the room his name is kota too!!! too wierd and kota says that his name is pretty rare. im really gonna miss my friends. attempting my best to have a possitive attitude about everything happening.
went and sat in the hottub this morning.
downloaded pics from my camera onto my puter last night but havent attempted to figure out how to upload them to facebook or flicker... pics are of last weekends bbq and the weekend before thats trip to seatle.
thats it for now i guess... gotta go to work... |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 28th, 2008|01:10 am] |
the other day i saw a bald eagle fly low over the buildings next to my work with two crows in persuit. the eagle was huge and looked pretty out of place but it seemed like it was old and very comfortable in the city. ive seen it quite a few times in the last year or two. i think its the same one. i saw it perched at the very top of a high rise behind my work once too.
other news, i bought a laptop overr the internet oin teh weekend. should get it in the mail soon.
so ill be on here more very soon.
cut my hair this mnorning feels soo good.
life is lookin better lately. i was pretty down around christmas but im comin back now. guess it was mostly cuz of fight with older bro but ive been talking to friendds again more and feel much better about things.
im dateing yujin again and shes great.
ummmm thats it for now i guess. gotta go to workkkkkk |
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| new year |
[Feb. 22nd, 2008|01:11 am] |
hey whats up cyber world. oh man its so nice out this morning. sun. sure have missed ya. and its nice to have you back. ive been trying my best to get out of the resteraunt and into the sun as much as i can these days. i feel so good now that shes back. ive been feeling pretty crappy since christmas, probly partly due to havin a big fight with my bro and partly to the non sun atmosphere.
finished my fourth novel last night and im gonna start the fifth when i pick it up from the library after work today.
im gonna go and try to get one of my computers fixed this weekend. ive been missing thel puter life and posting stuff on here but its also good cuz ive been reading a lot and not wasting hours playin computer games.
gotta go to work now but its good to post somethning on here. its been too long. |
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| went out |
[Dec. 9th, 2007|08:43 pm] |
i went to the legion tonight for some swing dancing with a friend. it was pretty good but i was kinda tired. i danced with her to maybe 6 songs. i also took the lesson from 8 to 8:30 so that was good for practice.
then i left by myself. i felt like wondering around downtown so i went. i was wondering where to go... so i kinda felt like hip hop music. i thought maybe plush. but then i decided to go to shine cuz i thought it was soul night but it wasnt it was hip hop and mannnnn it was killer!!!
they played so many songs i love. they even played a sharon jones song. pretty cool. they played lots of my favorite band, justice. soooo good. even the killing in the name of remix. they played some great oldy hip hop songs. dirty old bastard and lots of other stuff... haha kant remembver the names. i had a bunch of beers.
such a great time. its great being a loner sometimes. haha. i got two emails tonight. one from the door girl who ive met a couple times and another from the girl who i thought was the best dancer there that night. she had really great energy. it was awsome so i told her so. and asked for her email. ha. actually i have no idea what i want to say in the email but it would be cool just to know them and maybe be friends or even just satisfy my curiousities.
cant wait for tomorrow night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sharon jones and the dap kings. |
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| winter |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|01:24 pm] |
its snowing!!!!!!!!!!
yippy |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 28th, 2007|06:55 pm] |
Pachelbel's Canon in D w/ hip hop
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oex4S3vPKR4&feature=related
saw this really great movie with my roomate jake when i got home from work tonight. it was called :my sassy girl:. it was a korean romance/comedy. it made me almost cry 4 times. soooo goood.
im sooo tired...
lots on my mind...
dont have to work till 5pm tomorrow so ill actually have some time off tomorrow. i hate working split shifts. blah blah i hate complainging too hahaha.
i really ought to go to sleep so i can do something productive tomorrow. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 21st, 2007|07:37 pm] |
where to start?
important note. i went to see my niece and 1 month old nephew yesterday. that was our first meeting. he looks more like his moms brother than me or his dad. curious, i thought he would look something like the crosby boys but i guess those french genes are strong. anyhow i took maia out for a walk in the rain and cold. we had great adventures exploring the cemetary and trees and pudles and mushrooms and crows. we had fun playing games, hide and seek and singing and walking on walls and sidewalk curbs while she held my finger. it was a long overdue adventure. i hadnt seen her since ummm... thanks giving and we only had dinner together not much adventuring there. ive kind of been a bit down and out lately i think. sort of brooding of sorts i guess....i dont know... getting drunk a lot lately. guess im not as happy as i want to be or something. makin changes can be so.... arg. guess i need more practice to get more comfortable with it. ive come a long way and can go a lot further if i want.
lets see what else... ok today i went to ubc and listened with my super powers of focus and attention to two lovely speakers on the subject of evolutionary biology regarding the golapagos finches otherwise known as darwins finches. that was amazing. i really loved their lecture and was greatful to be there. they where both very good speakers. i went with maya vlad and veronika. it was nice to see maya. i went over to her house to pick her up. that was a first time. i hadnt seen maya for a long time so that was great. big hugs. had some good chocolate tonight. mmmmm.
lets see.... what else... segio called me yesterday i think and left me a message apologizing for not getting back to me lately. so i better call him back tomorrow. ive been trying to get my rez to him so i can get a better job at his work. ive sort of given up on that idea lately. but i guess its still a posibility. its not what i want to do but at least it will pay better than what im doing now. fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 im pretty angry tonight. maybe i wont be able to get to sleep....grrrr.... guess its good to try to get things out on txt. maybe that will help. i guess vlad pissed me off a bit tonight. kicked me in my dick for now reason. and other irritating things about his and my friendship i find difficult to get into. fuckin skin head punks! im angry about my work situation. im angry about me and how im so slow to change. to change and move forward on my goals in life. fear! grrr...fuck fear!!!!!!!survival is not enough, i want to flourish but have been simply surviving for so long its difficult to feel comfortable to flourish. things need to change. i can see the direction im going in and dont want to be a bitter old bum whos mad at the world cuz i didnt live cuz i choose the wrong paths and cuz of that that i came to believe i didnt have a choice when i know deep down that i alwasy had a choise. cuz i chose to hide from life. how can i find the strength to fly? perhaps i got to find the right plane. no japanese zero, maybe an american worthog. armor is good.
anyhow i just txt my old girlfriend yujin and asked her if she wants to be friends. she said sure so thats great. i was kinda mad at her for a while but decided thats a waste. she said she will come over to our next house party. so i look forward to bein friends with her and not having to worry about all that boyfrind/girlfriend shit.
what else....hmmm im not saving money at all these days. that really sucks and goes againts my goal of saving at least 500 a month. arg....
im currently in negotiontions with my work for better hrs and more pay. they know i want to work days now. so the next opening they might give to me... but i dont expect it to happpen for a couple weeks. which really sux. they gave me a 25 cent raise to placate me which it did for a day but then after the excitement of actually speakin my mind was over i realized its only a 30 dollars a paycheque equivlent. big fucken deal. so if i start working days with a regular schedule ill achieve that goal of wanting more money and stability and day shifts so i can plan an evening life. it sucks haveing a constantly changing schedule. blah blah blah.
maya wants to hook me up with her roomate. shes always tryin to hook me up. its kinda funny. i used to go to school with her at langara and already know her so thats cool. shes kinda neat and hot. maybe we will take swing lessons together.that might be fun.
its been a long time since i actually wrote something substanciale in here.
my dad called me and left a message hte other day asking how i was. i better call him back. i didnt want to call him back cuz i didnt want to talk about how shity i was. same with my frined howard....i better call him back too.
hmmm what else.... im still pissed off. cant sleep.... its always good to have goals. i know that. how is it that i always get so side tracked from that knowlage? blah blah blah.
also kind of in the processes of makin a new female friend from clubs. she seems pretty neat and has a worm compost!!! cool huh! she said she would give me some of her worms in the spring. i cant wait. shes a self confessed computer nerd.
damn ive been getting drunk so much lately. doesnt help with my goals of saving money. but it does shoe the blues away for a while.
fuck!!! this peice of shit computer and program... i lost a bunch of stuff.... if i push a button on here accidentally it erases what i wrote. fuck sooo anoying....anyway im goin to try to sleep now. im fed up.
i need to go back to school. |
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